Tonight is the is the full moon for June, hopefully the weather will cooperate and I will be able to use the outdoor table I crafted. Its fireproof, and for those that don’t know (or don’t want to know) its a table to hold the grill. It can double as an altar space complete with torches at the cardinal points.
I am not planning any major rituals, just the basic Full Moon to Morrigan. I need to release the building energy. I am convinced that is the cause of the panic attack in my sleep last night. I spent an hour in the ocean yesterday, that should have disbursed some of the energy, but it is almost as if it intensified and concentrated the forces.
I am becoming more aware of my empath characteristics, and I need to research more on how to release that energy, mostly negative. The people in my realm are reaping the consequences of their actions. I can no longer allow their poor choices to affect me. Meditating with the “Not my problem” mantra is not working. I need to find a way to prevent their mayhem from invading my realm.
My former spouse is moving in with my daughter two buildings down from my house. ?Why because he has not paid his rent in nearly two years. How does one let that go for so long? I am just at a loss, my biggest concern, is his dog. I know that she can’t allow the dog in her house because she a foster that is making its way to permanent. One she does not want, her husband took in, she can t manage the dog, its large and does not listen to her. She works full time, has three active little boys, two dogs (one she can not walk) a husband that works nights and sleeps days, studies online and now her father. Not my problem, but when her sons start showing up at my house looking for peace from the crazy…it will be my problem.
Then there is my son and his family. He can not seem to generate enough funds to meet his expenses. He needs to find a trade, so he can earn more money at a day job, not try and deliver food after working all day. He needs to spend time fixing his home to make it livable and a good place to raise his children. His youngest is less than a week old, and I just paid his electric bill. He needs to get it together, I live in fear that family services will show up and want me to take his children. I am hoping that he learns from seeing his father in his current state, hopefully he will get his act together and flourish.
I shall focus the shedding of the negative thoughts and energies. I do not wish to banish people from my life, only the negative energy that they generate. I need to disburse this abundance of energy I am carrying around.
Snowmoon Adventures 