Changes…

I took a few days off from my work and went on a little road trip.  The drive was great, rather peaceful.  I had plenty of miles to sort out my head, and really look at my world with fresh eyes.  My life has become complicated, and it really does not need to be that messy.  My life needs to be filled with happiness and upbeat thoughts.  There is no room in my life for negativity, there is no room for unhappiness, no room for drama.

THe hardest part was morning the loss of the relationship of Jim, I had been hanging on far too long.  The words were finally said out loud, we have been moving in separate directions for quite some time.  It was time to finally put the idea of a romantic relationship in perspective.  He is a great man, a great friend, and life has just drawn us on different paths.  It was time for me to stop waiting for him, to accept that if he really wanted to make the relationship a priority, he would have made time for us.  When he sold the property to Charlie, that is when I should have walked away.  That was a dream we created, he built with features for me and my personal lifestyle in mind, then he just decided to sell it.  He did not consult me, he just said this is how its going to be.  I held on too long.

Things that this little trip has taught me, I am in charge of me.  I do not need a lot of material things in my life, I probably have way too many as I type (that will slowly change).  If it has value, I am selling it.  If it’s use has been depleted its going to the dump

It is time to turn my artistic hobbies into a money making machine.  Several ideas for projects that are not complicated for my skill level, that will make great products for an Etsy Store. Look forward to seeing a new adventure in my art.  I am thinking that eventually I will be doing more art and less office work, but for now, office is first, art second.

The daily visit to the beach is a must, and I am adding an annual holiday to my calendar.  The number of people that have commented on the difference in my appearance, my attitude, my persona after this little adventure, all positive things.  One needs an official time out to sort out the crazy. A character in the book I am reading references a delete button in her head, I am adopting that action, and making it my own.  When a negative thought or encounter occurs, I am just  hitting  the delete button.  Just like the one  in the upper right hand corner of the keyboard, the one in my head erases the negativity.

The new work schedule starts this week, this is the time for changes.  My schedule will be six days on, one day off.  This week will be intense, my commitment to take a grandson to the zoo on Sunday  (the only day off) will make for a condensed Saturday to shop, prep and cook for the upcoming week.  Then changes will just mean more efficient planning and prepping to accomplish all the tasks. The busy season is quickly approaching, the days of chillaxing on the job are quickly fading.

Time for a new meal plan, more on the go finger foods.  One of the lessons learned on my adventure, deviating from the healthy eating plan results in feeling unwell.  For future trips, a packed cooler with my foods will be required.  The days of driving through and grabbing a burger are gone.  Sure it tastes great at the moment, but the next day, oh my, my body was revolting.  Also in the rear view mirror of life, staying up all night.  21 hours awake is not something this body is designed to accomplish.  The combination of garbage in gut and lack of sleep resulted in a loss of a day.  Some things are better left to the young, and young I am not.

So there are many changes on my horizon.