As the follower of the Celtic tradition, the wheel is turning constantly, but I am anticipating great changes in the upcoming year. This last thirteen lunar month cycle has been filled with great turbulent emotions. It is my intention that this next thirteen lunar months be less turbulent, more financially stable and charged.
Many aspects of my life will be changing in the next thirteen months. The business that I currently work for will be terminating. Although I dread having to go back to a traditional office job, that seems to be the fate. It will be nice to be paid for my worth as opposed to the minimal pay I receive now. I will miss the people of the community, and they will miss this business. It has been a positive force in my life, there are many things I have learned, many people I have met and many lives that I have touched. This will probably survive until the end of the calendar year, but not after that.
One of the people I met was for the reason to make me aware that the relationship with J1 was not meeting my needs and after much deliberation, meditation, and evaluation I have faced that our relationship is not what it used to be, that gradually we have drifted apart and are no longer anything more that friends. J2, the person that sparked my interest, has not been totally truthful. He has been friendly, and flirty, indicated he was divorced (maybe at one time), and fun to encounter at work. As it turns out, he got married on my last birthday, ironic. The first man that turns my head and sparks desires that I have not had in years, implied he was available two months into his marriage. Wonder why I don’t trust men???
This upcoming Wheel, my focus will be on Brigit. The more I study about her, the more I realize she is calling me and has been for some time. She was a single woman in a time when women married and had families. That is not the path she chose. I plan to spend the year in her company, turning my attention inward to hone my skills as a healer, as a crafter and keeper of the Eternal Flame. I plan to spend more time exploring the true Celtic Path, not Wicca or Druidism, pure Celtic paganism.
This is a fresh start for life, part of me wished that this gig was ending at the end of October to coincide with the Wheel, but we will make the most of what we have left here, it would be foolish to shut down before the high volume season. What the owners and the people don’t realize is that I am moving forward with my life. I am courteous, friendly and being the best employee I can, but I am no longer pouring my heart and soul into this.
I have started to prepare for entry into the corporate workplace, thankfully i never got rid of the suits and blouses. I recently came across two pair of workplace shoes for less than $20.00, I accepted the sign that this is a one of the blessings to come. It will be nice to have a little financial freedom, not just getting by, but having a little left over. I am going to take the next few months to really fine tune my thoughts on the ideal job, definitely some where that is not religious based. I do not care to start and end a staff meeting with prayer.
I will miss my morning beach time, I will need to make a conscience effort to make weekend trips to the beach. Who knows, maybe I could go to the beach, then go to the gym and use their shower to get ready for the office. That would be a large sleep shift, as I would have to get up pretty early and the sun may not even be up at the time I was at the beach. Hard to greet Lugh if he has not risen. Well, no use worrying about that now. I have several months to get through before we reach that point.
I trust in Lugh, Morrigan and Brigit to lead me on the correct Path and open the doors that I need to walk through.
Snowmoon Adventures 