A little bit late, but today is as good as any to start this Year and a Day. This date, 45 years ago, was the day my world crashed. My Nana died, she was Nana to many (26 grandchildren), but she and I had a special bond. This date is also the birthday of one of my favorite cousins, well second cousin. Some happiness to go with the sadness. This date has always been a day of extremes for me, big ups and big downs. So, to start the Year and a Day, today is a good day to begin.
The Year and a Day is an old Scottish tradition, it was tied to handfasting. A couple could live together, and after a year and a day, they would decide to stay together or go their separate ways. This year, the Beltane tarot spread I chose had a component that indicated there was something I needed to commit to do for a year and a day. The card that landed on that spot was the card for creative writers and artists. Well, I know that I realistically a not going to paint everyday, that would be a nice treat, but not realistic
The same day, I received an email from wordpress that I needed to update my payment method to renew my account. The Universe has spoken, and I will try my best to write every day. I know that I have made that statement in the past,and it has not come to fruition. I am not even going to feel guilty about that, it is part of my ADHD and that is just who I am. All I can do is try, I have set an alarm on the phone and with all the technology, I am optimistic that I will be able to keep this up.
As to my ADHD, I am learning more and more each day about life with ADHD. There is so much information available today, there are so many options. My current life is without medication, and that is not by my choice. There are advantages and disadvantages to life with medication. My choice is going to be with the medication, therapy and behavior modification.
In the middle of 2022, I started medication. My position in my company changed and I felt that to best perform, I would need that help. Things were going well, a little hiccup when the medication I was on became unavailable in generic. I was able to buy the name brand for one month. Then that too was unavailable. The same time, my health insurance changed and the office manager refused to allow me to keep my appointment- although I had told them there would be a change, I offered to pay cash for the appointment. She flat out refused to allow my appointment.
That was the end of my medication, and a true challenge began. I was comfortable enough with my position to perform my tasks. I was very upfront with my coworkers and upper management about the situation, fortunately, I work with a large group of nuerodivergent people and they understand and make allowances. We work together to accomplish the goals, everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.
There is hope, always hope. Thanks to the pandemic, we now have virtual appointments, and that will be my method. There are many more resources available and with the number of people willing to share their story on social media platforms, it makes it much easier to have an open discussion.
I doubt I will ever be brave enough to make a video, that is not my personality. I can share my story on this blog, that is my personality. I can continue to learn more about one of the many aspects of me, and let go of old ideas that are not flaws, but part of the condition. Will my house ever be show room ready, maybe some day, probably not soon. Will I ever be completely organized and stay that way…probably not. Will I ever stop going down the rabbit hole (now I know its called hyperfixation), no, but a lot of my creativity comes about from that rabbit hole. Will I ever get around to writing the story
in my head- maybe…wouldn’t that be a trip worth riding.
Snowmoon Adventures 